ack!

i wanna scream.

my house is not finished, it hasn't been for weeks...now it's worse. all our new cabinets are here and they are stacked up in their boxes filling up my living room. my couches are stacked on top of each other and my kitchen has wires exposed. there is construction mess everywhere. i can't get into my kid's bedroom, i can barely get into my own room and the office and bathroom.
and yet, they think its safe for us to be here.
I'm the type of person i need to have a plan, although spontaneity is nice and it has it's place when there is something big like this there needs to be a plan....but no...we are flying by the seat of our pants and nothing has a set plan.
i want to stay in a hotel, but apparently there aren't any big enough. nope. Americinn says we can't rent from them. they won't rent to us because our family is to big and it violates fire code. they said they can rent to 6 people in their double rooms max. not 7. we have 7. even though two are babies and all 5 kids are under age 6 it dosen't matter. they won't rent to 7.

so, were trying to see if we can get back into the Cove Point Lodge...but they won't approve it for today. why? i have no idea. they think it's just fine to have 5 kids confined to the space of a queen sized mattress while theres so many hazzards everywhere....my house right now is an accident waiting to happen.

every where i look there are things that could fall on the kids. everywhere. one of my facebook friends recently lost her two year old son to an accident where a dresser fell on him. i'm terrified of the things in my house that could fall on my children, expecially right now where everything we own is stacked up everywhere.

i dont know where anything in this house is. i can't get to most of our things even when i need to. Rob keeps asking me to find this or that and there is no way i can, not with out sorting thru all the millions of stacked boxes everywhere.

oh, i'm very greatful that my house is getting fixed. it's just taking way longer than anyone told me it would. (i expected that) and it's putting my kids in danger while we sit here trying to keep them still on a queen sized bed all day. even TV can't keep 5 kids still for that long. they want to run and play, and already Dyllan has hurt himself on stuff that's all over the house just from walking into something.

so tonight i'm expected to have 5 kids sleeping where? Rob says on the floor in the hallway. oh yea that's pleasant. the hallway is cement right now. seriously, has anyone but me thought about the children in this whole mess?


and yes, i asked around looking for sitters...but none were anywhere to be found. almost everyone it seems is in duluth today, or sick as the case may be. i may have a place for the kids to stay tonight, but even so it would be imposing on people who are dealing with their own kids being sick...not so sure i wanna do that to them. i know i woudln't want extra kids when mine are sick....

oh well. time to take a deep breath and get back to work i guess. Lord, please protect my children.